THROUGHOUT my life, there have been difficulties, but I’ve always managed to survive, except when it came to broken relationships. I’ve been in love with the same man for three years. We were best of friends for eight years, and he was my first of everything.
Nine months ago, I found out he was cheating on me and planned on marrying this woman. He is now engaged. It broke my heart and my faith. Since then, I have dated others, but they never last past the first month. I would not even call them relationships.
A few weeks ago, I started dating a wonderful guy, and he has made me more happy than my ‘ex’ ever did. I like him very much, but I do not love him. He tells me he loves me and would never let me go. But every time I am with him, I always wish he was my ‘ex’.
I love my ‘ex’ as much as I did when we were together, and even though I know it’s unfair to my new beau, I cannot stop it or even forget. The love I feel for my ‘ex’ is what made my previous courtships fail, and he didn’t help either. He contacted me, telling me he still loves me and wants me, but he never follows through when I end it with the new fellow.
I so want this new relationship to last, I sucked up all the pain I felt and tried not to let old feelings get in the way. So far, it’s working, because our relationship is still going. But I want much more than just liking my partner; he deserves someone able to return his love. I want to do it, but I don’t know how. How do I move past the feelings I have for my ‘ex’? I know I will never forget, but I need to love again.